How might your life have been different, if, deep within, you carried an image of the Great Mother? And when things seemed very, very bad, you could imagine that you were sitting in the lap of the Goddess, held tightly.... embraced, at last. And that you could hear her saying to you, I love you... I love you and I need you to bring forth yourself. ~ Judith Duerk, Circle of Stones
This was very powerful for me to read. It touched me deep within my soul. It's been with me ever since I read it a few weeks ago. What would that be like to be able to sit in the lap of the The Great Mother? The Great Mother is here within me. I can access her within me and sit in her lap. She is my way to find my own inner voice, my own inner authority, and my own true self. I just need to sit with her often, going within, and listening.
I was moved this past weekend in several ways by the Goddess. It was an important weekend to me in all ways feminine. It was my own celebration of my birth and the celebration of nourishing and nurting women ~ honoring the Great Mother in all women.
She first spoke to me in a dream I had Friday night. It was a strange dream for me. I dreamt that I literally cut off my left foot. I sawed it off, with no pain and no blood shed. I felt it was something I had to do, even with distractions. I was a little disturbed that following morning trying to figure out why I would have a dream like that. I was only able to do a little research on the dream interpretation as I had a very busy morning getting ready for the Art of the Goddess Arts and Craft Show.
Later on that morning I was able to ask a very intuitive and wise dear friend of mine on what she thought this dream was about. She told me that she felt like it was symbolic of a shamanic death, a cutting away of a pattern, and with it being on the left, a cutting away of an old feminine pattern. She also felt as if my Grandmother, who recently pass had also come in to affirm the end of this pattern that had gone on in generations before me. It was to end with me.
I sat with that for a moment, then went on with reading the book I had brought for the down times of my show. That book was The Dance of the Dissident Daugther by Sue Monk Kidd. Sure enough, if I didn't get the message, it was told to me again, as I was reading a chapter called "Healing the Feminine Wound." The paragraph started as...I've discussed things that make up the feminine wound within women, church, and culture: the devaluation and negation of the feminine, the disconnection of women from their feminine soul, the silencing of the real voices of women, the loss of feminine feet, hands, mouths, and hearts....... She speaks to the loss of parts previously in her book referring back to dreams she had where women appeared with missing parts.
She was even more powerful with her message later on that evening with Kirtan, which was mostly all about the Divine Mother. The chant for Durga, moved me so much, I felt I was on fire! Durga is all about setting boundaries. For me, boundaries of empowerment, boundaries for my own creation and magic. Setting my own boundaries within for myself, for me, and for others.
And finally, Crow spoke to me this afternoon as I drove out in the country. She reminds me to look for all the opportunities to create and manifest the magic of life!
So, my Birthday wish for myself is to sit more often within and to listen, on the lap of the Great Mother. And also, how cool would it also be to actually find a physical place on The Great Mother Earth to feel physically as if I AM in the lap of the Great Mother!